LoSer YoU!!!

It's been 22 years of living in this wide world but still i think it's small as i'm stuck here in Malaysia. been wondering how is it being outside. The world of movies and pictures as well as internet are the only possibilities for me to explore. Other than that is only based on my friend's experiences, facebook friends and lecturers' stories. Damn!!! that sucks for not having the first  hand experience.... hmmmm .... lets leave that part of the story later.

The story that i'm going to tell the world today is about me..
i'm going to start with the same line.... It's been 22 years of living in this wide world but... still i'm a loser.
the question is why??
the moment i wrote this post, i am actually 22 years 3 months 9 days old and yet i have no one to be with. It does not mean i don't have friends but what i'm trying to say here is a special girl. HaHa... now the topic is getting to the point.

I've been using the word loser to best describe my entire personality especially on the girl because no matter where i am, the people with my age at least had an EX.... Well guess what!! I never had any. Well, I'm going to start with friends. As i mention myself is a student in UPM, my close friends in UPM has their own girl to hold on to.... if their girls are not around, at least they still have contact via phone, facebook, or any possible technology available. It has made me somehow jealous but not to the extend of extreme level hahah. I presume that at my age at least people got laid somehow somewhere but me , i'm just me. That is another story.

from the top left: Preela, Stefan, Gray, Emmanuel, Nickcarlstann, Allan, Paulus, Nova

from the bottom left: Leewe, Gerald

from the top left: Gray, Saifoor, Jobil

from bottom left: Leewe, Gerald

I got home recently and found that my siblings have their own admirers which i knew it's their girlfriend. They asked me where's my girl and i simply said nope... got nobody. At first i thought it was a honor to say it in pride but when i retract back on what i've just said, it is a loser's sentence. OMG.... doesn't feel right after that particular moment.

from the top left: Kenneth Aldridge (2nd), Felix Glenn (3rd), Gerald

from the bottom left: Mr. Ulok (dad a.k.a Boss), Mdm. Midah (Mum a.k.a Financial Manager), Hilda Marvelynna (4th)

During my convocation this year in October,10, my mum was there asking my buddies, Allan, Gray and Paulus, where is my girlfriend. Hmmmm that was freaking weird but still she has all the right to know. How did I knew?? The 3 of them told me. At that moment, i was totally speechless. Damn..... what am i supposed to do when my mum seems wanted to know who is my girl...then the awkwardness goes directly to my face. My mum ask me directly. She asked, those who are graduating seems to have all love ones be with them including their girlfriends and boyfriends so, where is yours??... I was driving when she asked me and i was totally stumped. I answered, it's not the time yet... but so far i'm still single...OMG.. i felt like a total loser..... damn......

Dad, me, and mum

After some investigation done, my mum popped the question this year on my graduation day is because she got married to my dad when she was 22 and my dad was 25... this is a further and extension humiliation to me.
hmmm... i don't know.... i'm still a loser until today.. never have any experience of holding hands with another girl not to mention got laid. Loser is what i am....and still hoping it will turn around one day... But the questions are when and how.....(RJG)